Tuesday, July 18, 2006
Esta distância que nos separa. Ou uma amizade que cresce a cada dia. As palavras que a alimentam. A magia de cada conversa. Há coisas que não podemos definir. Que tinham mesmo de acontecer, por estarem no nosso destino. O encontrarmo-nos com certas pessoas. O viver certas coisas que nos fazem mudar para sempre. O crescer a cada dia ou a cada nova pessoa que encontramos. O que damos aos outros de nós mesmos. Ou o que calamos fundo na alma, por não haver palavras suficientemente "grandes" onde caiba tanto sentimento.
Sunday, July 16, 2006
Ela folheava recordações como quem folheia um livro. Pegava nas memórias como quem pega em velhas fotografias. Cantava músicas que mais ninguém conhecia como quem ouve um disco com baladas há já muito esquecidas...
No seu sorriso seguro adivinhavam-se inúmeros segredos que nunca contava. Nos seus olhos moravam confissões guardadas com carinho, que lhe foram feitas por entre lágrimas e risos, em dias e noites que faziam o mundo todo ser pequeno demais para tanto sentir.
No entanto, no dia em que partiu, ninguém notou. Sentiram, de facto, um certo desconforto na alma, uma ansiedade vaga, uma certa saudade de algo que não sabiam definir.
Até ao dia em que, eles próprios, necessitaram partilhar uma recordação, evocar uma memória, falar de uma canção feita pelas suas almas... Quando descobriram que já lá não estava quem ouvia os seus segredos e que não iam poder voltar a confessar coisas que seriam inconfessáveis a qualquer outra pessoa...
Foi nesse dia que aprenderam o significado da palavra eternidade.
No seu sorriso seguro adivinhavam-se inúmeros segredos que nunca contava. Nos seus olhos moravam confissões guardadas com carinho, que lhe foram feitas por entre lágrimas e risos, em dias e noites que faziam o mundo todo ser pequeno demais para tanto sentir.
No entanto, no dia em que partiu, ninguém notou. Sentiram, de facto, um certo desconforto na alma, uma ansiedade vaga, uma certa saudade de algo que não sabiam definir.
Até ao dia em que, eles próprios, necessitaram partilhar uma recordação, evocar uma memória, falar de uma canção feita pelas suas almas... Quando descobriram que já lá não estava quem ouvia os seus segredos e que não iam poder voltar a confessar coisas que seriam inconfessáveis a qualquer outra pessoa...
Foi nesse dia que aprenderam o significado da palavra eternidade.
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
Encanta-me conhecer pessoas novas. Talvez porque ha' sempre tanto a descobrir em cada pessoa que conhecemos. Saber porque estao a cruzar a nossa vida, porque sao como sao, pelo que passaram para que se tornassem assim.
Ontem foi um dia de certezas. Daquelas que nos assaltam a alma, assim quando menos esperamos, e, de repente, estamos absolutamente seguros de alguma coisa.
Ao mesmo tempo, tento entender o que leva certas pessoas a abrirem-se tanto comigo, a partilhar tanto das suas vidas quando ainda agora acabamos de nos conhecer...e ja' nao me espanto quando isso chega a acontecer com fornecedores, clientes, pessoas com quem nunca imaginei vir a ultrapassar a barreira do profissionalismo e da formalidade...Tambem nao me importo quando esses limites sao ultrapassados, sei que nao fui talhada para um mundo artificial, de aparencias, de regras sociais...sei circular nesse mundo se tiver de o fazer, obviamente, mas e' algo que evito a todo o custo.
Que posso dizer em relacao a isto, em minha defesa, se e' que e' necessario defender-me de algo assim? Gosto de pessoas, gosto dos sentimentos que me provocam. Gosto de sentir que nao ando sozinha, que a minha vida toca a de tantas pessoas de quem gosto, de quem gosto muito, muito, muito! Que todos os dias me ensinam alguma coisa ou me fazem rir ou pensar. Ou que eu tenho esse efeito nelas...
Acho mesmo que o mundo e' um circulo de amor. E 'a medida que vou deixando cada vez mais novos amigos entrarem nesta minha "roda" ja' nao me sinto tao perdida , encontro uma bussola para me guiar naqueles dias que, de tao cinzentos, 'as vezes nem consigo ver o caminho.
Quando era pequena, tentava imaginar o que era ser adulto. Nao fazia a minima ideia do que e' ser adulto, sei-o agora. Para o bem e para o mal. Nao, nao posso fazer sempre tudo aquilo que quero. Mas, nos momentos mais importantes, sou dona e senhora dos meus dias e noites. Dos caminhos que escolho, apesar das condicionantes. Mas tambem aprendi que crescer e' descobrir que a cada dia que passa nos sentimos mais presos ao que temos, ao que queremos adquirir, 'as pessoas que conhecemos ou que sonhamos em encontrar. Mas que e' essa mesma prisao que nos torna a pessoa que somos e que nos da' liberdade. Parece contraditorio, eu sei. Mas para mim nao o e'. Eu acredito na liberdade quando se ama. Como fiz com o pardal que criei e que libertei para que fosse feliz. Por mais que o quisesse ter para sempre comigo, nao podia obrigar o seu coracao a uma realidade que em nada tinha a ver com o seu destino.
E eu acredito no destino. Em encontrarmos as pessoas certas, que escolhem ficar connosco porque o seu coracao lhes diz que encontraram a companhia certa para esta viagem. O apoio nos momentos dificeis. O riso nos momentos de alegria. E isso e' exactamente o que tenho recebido e dado nesta vida...
Ontem foi um dia de certezas. Daquelas que nos assaltam a alma, assim quando menos esperamos, e, de repente, estamos absolutamente seguros de alguma coisa.
Ao mesmo tempo, tento entender o que leva certas pessoas a abrirem-se tanto comigo, a partilhar tanto das suas vidas quando ainda agora acabamos de nos conhecer...e ja' nao me espanto quando isso chega a acontecer com fornecedores, clientes, pessoas com quem nunca imaginei vir a ultrapassar a barreira do profissionalismo e da formalidade...Tambem nao me importo quando esses limites sao ultrapassados, sei que nao fui talhada para um mundo artificial, de aparencias, de regras sociais...sei circular nesse mundo se tiver de o fazer, obviamente, mas e' algo que evito a todo o custo.
Que posso dizer em relacao a isto, em minha defesa, se e' que e' necessario defender-me de algo assim? Gosto de pessoas, gosto dos sentimentos que me provocam. Gosto de sentir que nao ando sozinha, que a minha vida toca a de tantas pessoas de quem gosto, de quem gosto muito, muito, muito! Que todos os dias me ensinam alguma coisa ou me fazem rir ou pensar. Ou que eu tenho esse efeito nelas...
Acho mesmo que o mundo e' um circulo de amor. E 'a medida que vou deixando cada vez mais novos amigos entrarem nesta minha "roda" ja' nao me sinto tao perdida , encontro uma bussola para me guiar naqueles dias que, de tao cinzentos, 'as vezes nem consigo ver o caminho.
Quando era pequena, tentava imaginar o que era ser adulto. Nao fazia a minima ideia do que e' ser adulto, sei-o agora. Para o bem e para o mal. Nao, nao posso fazer sempre tudo aquilo que quero. Mas, nos momentos mais importantes, sou dona e senhora dos meus dias e noites. Dos caminhos que escolho, apesar das condicionantes. Mas tambem aprendi que crescer e' descobrir que a cada dia que passa nos sentimos mais presos ao que temos, ao que queremos adquirir, 'as pessoas que conhecemos ou que sonhamos em encontrar. Mas que e' essa mesma prisao que nos torna a pessoa que somos e que nos da' liberdade. Parece contraditorio, eu sei. Mas para mim nao o e'. Eu acredito na liberdade quando se ama. Como fiz com o pardal que criei e que libertei para que fosse feliz. Por mais que o quisesse ter para sempre comigo, nao podia obrigar o seu coracao a uma realidade que em nada tinha a ver com o seu destino.
E eu acredito no destino. Em encontrarmos as pessoas certas, que escolhem ficar connosco porque o seu coracao lhes diz que encontraram a companhia certa para esta viagem. O apoio nos momentos dificeis. O riso nos momentos de alegria. E isso e' exactamente o que tenho recebido e dado nesta vida...
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
"The Invitation
It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting you heart's longing.
It doesn't interest me how old you are.I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dream, for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon.I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain. I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it.
I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own, if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, to be realistic, to remember the limitations of being human.
It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself; if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul; if you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see beauty, even when it's not pretty, every day, and if you can source your own life from its presence.
I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still satnd on the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, "Yes!"
It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up, after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done to feed the children.
It doesn't interest me who you know or how you came to be here.I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.
It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you, from the inside, when all else falls away.
I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.
Oriah Mountain Dreamer"
Monday, June 12, 2006
O outro lado do coração ---
Deixar-me seguir num sentimento, sem pensar no amanhã, no que vai ser depois. Se a vida é tão curta como dizem, como a adivinho, porque não gozá-la? Por quê esta preocupação constante com o pensar se é certo , se parece mal ou bem?
A pouco e pouco, aprender a libertar-me...a saber partir, a saber deixar de me entregar tanto aos outros e tão pouco a mim própria...
Deixar-me seguir num sentimento, sem pensar no amanhã, no que vai ser depois. Se a vida é tão curta como dizem, como a adivinho, porque não gozá-la? Por quê esta preocupação constante com o pensar se é certo , se parece mal ou bem?
A pouco e pouco, aprender a libertar-me...a saber partir, a saber deixar de me entregar tanto aos outros e tão pouco a mim própria...
Sunday, June 11, 2006
Das poucas vezes em que achei que um questionario de Internet acertou...
"What kind of eyes do you have?
You have eden eyes. Eden is the color of water. Your eyes symbolize your great flexibility. You are a creative person. You can think of many good ways to get your point across to people as you have very good communication abilities. When someone feels down or is hurt, you have the remarkable ability to help them and heal them. If you have too little going on in your life, you may be withdrawn and depressed, timid, manipulative, unreliable, stubborn, or suspicious. Some words to describe you: peaceful, sincere, affectionate, tranquil, intuitive, trustworthy, pure, loyal, healing, and stable."
"Olha, já não aguento mais. É só o que te digo. É tudo uma chatice." -- e eu ali, a ouvir, sem saber o que dizer, quando o avançado das horas já não me deixa responder aos seus desabafos com alguma coerência. Será que, se lhe disser que, o que me chateia de morte é a sua conversa, ela se chateia e se vai embora? Isso seria bom demais para ser verdade...e, provavelmente nem se ia embora e ainda acrescentava mais umas odes à sua elegia do quão infeliz é...mas que rica maneira de passar um sábado à noite, digo eu...a aturar tipas com os copos...ainda por cima nem é minha amiga, está com os meus amigos e nem sei bem porquê achou que eu tinha cara de confessora. O que me vale é o Nuno, que já me conhece de outros Carnavais, que vê bem que eu já estou pelos cabelos com esta tipa e me chama para irmos lá fora. Caneco...Mas quem é que trouxe esta carpideira dos copos ? Não há paciência para estas lamúrias...Nem me digas nada, ela é prima de um amigo meu e encontrou-me à saída do restaurante e colou-se a nós...e desatamos a rir...só a ele para acontecer uma destas...ou a mim. Qualquer um de nós é incapaz de virar as costas a alguém , mesmo quando não nos apetece nada estar ali...
E ele puxa de um cigarro e pergunta-me o que tenho...sei lá o que tenho, Nuno. Sei o que não tenho. Sei que ainda não sei as respostas todas, que ainda não decidi o que quero fazer da minha vida. Que viver neste limbo me mata. Que estou um bocado farta de tudo. E que, se calhar, até é bom acontecer isso. Porque assim, não tenho tanto a perder , quando me lembrar de mandar tudo às urtigas e me for embora. Porque vou. Só não sei é quando, que este processo do green card está a demorar horrores e eu para aqui farta de esperar. Se isto tivesse sido em Novembro, era tão fácil...aliás, quando estou nos Estados Unidos não há sequer dúvidas. O problema é voltar, é adaptar-me a esta vida...
E depois de me ouvir a mim a carpir esta angústia ( acho que aquela tipa me pegou a sua sarna) ele diz-me que tenho de aprender a ouvir a minha alma cigana. Whatever that means. Que se dane, vou mas é perguntar-lhe o que é que ele quer dizer com isso. E ele diz, aliás, explica-me com laranjas , a sua teoria...que só me entrego de alma e coração a tudo aquilo que faço, seja no trabalho, na família, nas amizades, para esconder o vazio de não me entregar de alma e coração a mim própria, aos meus desejos...Onde é que está a minha amiga que sonhava em ter uma vida diferente destes dias cinzentos de toda a gente? Aquele espírito livre que sonhava com uma vida tão diferente da do resto das pessoas? A amiga com quem me identifiquei desde o primeiro dia em que a conheci? Anda aí, enterrada em trabalho até às orelhas , para não se poder expressar, para não levantar ondas, para não estragar os planos a muita gente. É o que acontece, quando nos entregamos totalmente a quem amamos, criamos demasiadas expectativas e acabamos muitas vezes a anular-nos a nós próprios. Porque os outros acabam a depender de nós, mesmo quando não precisam de o fazer...
E eu a querer dizer-lhe que não é bem assim mas não encontro um meio de refutar a sua teoria sem parecer uma criança que se recusa a enfrentar a verdade por ser demasiado dura. E ele diz-me, não faz mal, minha linda. Tu és mesmo assim, faz parte da tua natureza procurares o caminho certo da maneira errada...Então olho para ele e pergunto-lhe em que é que ele difere de mim...E ele diz : Em nada!!!...olha para mim, era um rebelde, agora sou um auditor! E desatamos os 2 à gargalhada, bem alto, a soltar a alma...Os outros acham que já passámos da conta e nem sequer bebemos nada...Um dia destes, Nuno, um dia destes, fugimos os 2. Deixamos as nossas secretárias muito arrumadinhas, as pastas e os arquivos todos orientados e batemos a porta.
E se assim for, oxalá nos encontremos em algum caminho, errado ou não, desta vida. Porque irei sempre precisar dos teus abraços de urso, dos teus comentários desabridos sobre tudo e todos. E tu vais precisar sempre deste misto de voz da consciência e diabinho que te leva a re-pensar tudo o que fazes e sentes. E ambos vamos sentir a falta destas nossas conversas até ao nascer do sol...
E ele puxa de um cigarro e pergunta-me o que tenho...sei lá o que tenho, Nuno. Sei o que não tenho. Sei que ainda não sei as respostas todas, que ainda não decidi o que quero fazer da minha vida. Que viver neste limbo me mata. Que estou um bocado farta de tudo. E que, se calhar, até é bom acontecer isso. Porque assim, não tenho tanto a perder , quando me lembrar de mandar tudo às urtigas e me for embora. Porque vou. Só não sei é quando, que este processo do green card está a demorar horrores e eu para aqui farta de esperar. Se isto tivesse sido em Novembro, era tão fácil...aliás, quando estou nos Estados Unidos não há sequer dúvidas. O problema é voltar, é adaptar-me a esta vida...
E depois de me ouvir a mim a carpir esta angústia ( acho que aquela tipa me pegou a sua sarna) ele diz-me que tenho de aprender a ouvir a minha alma cigana. Whatever that means. Que se dane, vou mas é perguntar-lhe o que é que ele quer dizer com isso. E ele diz, aliás, explica-me com laranjas , a sua teoria...que só me entrego de alma e coração a tudo aquilo que faço, seja no trabalho, na família, nas amizades, para esconder o vazio de não me entregar de alma e coração a mim própria, aos meus desejos...Onde é que está a minha amiga que sonhava em ter uma vida diferente destes dias cinzentos de toda a gente? Aquele espírito livre que sonhava com uma vida tão diferente da do resto das pessoas? A amiga com quem me identifiquei desde o primeiro dia em que a conheci? Anda aí, enterrada em trabalho até às orelhas , para não se poder expressar, para não levantar ondas, para não estragar os planos a muita gente. É o que acontece, quando nos entregamos totalmente a quem amamos, criamos demasiadas expectativas e acabamos muitas vezes a anular-nos a nós próprios. Porque os outros acabam a depender de nós, mesmo quando não precisam de o fazer...
E eu a querer dizer-lhe que não é bem assim mas não encontro um meio de refutar a sua teoria sem parecer uma criança que se recusa a enfrentar a verdade por ser demasiado dura. E ele diz-me, não faz mal, minha linda. Tu és mesmo assim, faz parte da tua natureza procurares o caminho certo da maneira errada...Então olho para ele e pergunto-lhe em que é que ele difere de mim...E ele diz : Em nada!!!...olha para mim, era um rebelde, agora sou um auditor! E desatamos os 2 à gargalhada, bem alto, a soltar a alma...Os outros acham que já passámos da conta e nem sequer bebemos nada...Um dia destes, Nuno, um dia destes, fugimos os 2. Deixamos as nossas secretárias muito arrumadinhas, as pastas e os arquivos todos orientados e batemos a porta.
E se assim for, oxalá nos encontremos em algum caminho, errado ou não, desta vida. Porque irei sempre precisar dos teus abraços de urso, dos teus comentários desabridos sobre tudo e todos. E tu vais precisar sempre deste misto de voz da consciência e diabinho que te leva a re-pensar tudo o que fazes e sentes. E ambos vamos sentir a falta destas nossas conversas até ao nascer do sol...
"If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
(...) Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
(...)If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools(...)"
Escreve. Escreve. Continua a escrever. Mistura mentiras com verdades. Conheço bem quem faça isso. Faz o que quiseres. O blog é teu, a fantasia é tua. Até podes citar o meu nome. Que me importa? Eu sei o que sou. Sei o que valho. Sei (agora) que não és quem eu penso. Deixá-lo...o que eu sinto ou penso sobre ti também não tem importância nenhuma para a tua vida. E é mesmo assim que tem de ser. Segue cada um o seu caminho, conhecendo-se a si próprio, a pensar que conhece os outros. Até ao momento em que as máscaras caem e ficamos a saber se gostamos do que vemos ou não.
But make allowance for their doubting too;
(...) Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
(...)If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools(...)"
Escreve. Escreve. Continua a escrever. Mistura mentiras com verdades. Conheço bem quem faça isso. Faz o que quiseres. O blog é teu, a fantasia é tua. Até podes citar o meu nome. Que me importa? Eu sei o que sou. Sei o que valho. Sei (agora) que não és quem eu penso. Deixá-lo...o que eu sinto ou penso sobre ti também não tem importância nenhuma para a tua vida. E é mesmo assim que tem de ser. Segue cada um o seu caminho, conhecendo-se a si próprio, a pensar que conhece os outros. Até ao momento em que as máscaras caem e ficamos a saber se gostamos do que vemos ou não.
A única coisa que me alegra é saber que, se voltasse atrás, fazia tudo o que fiz até agora...da mesma maneira...porque a dádiva foi verdadeira. Com ou sem inocência. Aliás, nesta estória, gostava mesmo de saber quem é que foi inocente...
O amor é uma ave a tremer nas mãos de uma criança.
Serve-se de palavras por ignorar que as manhãs mais limpas não têm voz.
Eugénio de Andrade
A minha irmã encontrou um pardal e agora estou a tomar conta dele. Ainda não tem tantas penas como este da fotogafia e espero mesmo que chegue a esta fase. É tão difícil tomar conta de um pássaro bébé...
Por outro lado, há coisas que nos seduzem irremediavelmente, para além de todas as dificuldades...Bastou um dia comigo para reconhecer a minha voz e responder quando o chamo...Ou o querer dormir na minha mão o dia todo...A minha irmã diz que ele já sabe quem é a mãe...Pois, mas aqui esta "mãe" ainda tem de recorrer à Internet para descobrir como se faz a papa para ele (com comida de cão ou gato à base de carne, ovo cozido, molho de maçã e cálcio) e confesso que desespero quando não abre a boca para ser alimentado...A ver...prefiro não guardar esperanças e ir vivendo cada dia que me for dado com ele.
Fico é grata por estar de férias, senão não me seria possível manter este ritmo das refeições de hora a hora, ou mesmo estar com ele...como em tudo, até para salvar um passarinho, o timing é tudo nesta vida...
Saturday, June 10, 2006
Perguntas-me de que gosto. De tanta coisa, digo eu. De livros, de velas, de música, da lua...Ah, até tu já sabes o quanto eu gosto da lua... Gosto de pirilampos e da magia com que enchem a noite. Gosto de borboletas e das suas danças de cor. De joaninhas com a sua promessa de uma boa nova. Do arco-íris ou da paz que me faz sentir. De estrelas. De estar numa praia a olhar para as estrelas. Da estrela cadente que invocaste. De uma longa viagem em que te deixas dormir e eu posso ir olhando para ti, assim, de vez em quando, sem que o saibas. Acima de tudo, gosto de ti, sem saber bem como cheguei aqui e o que fazer de tudo isto. Gosto do teu sorriso. Gosto do teu cabelo macio e do toque da tua pele. Da tua voz e como me arrepio quando cantas. Gosto das nossas longas conversas pela noite fora. Das conversas sérias e das nossas suposições idiotas...Gosto do pôr-do-sol na praia. Quer lá estejas a vê-lo comigo, quer não. Posso sempre imaginar-te a meu lado, já que és mesmo a minha melhor companhia. Gosto de sentir que, desde que te conheci, que não me sinto sempre tão sozinha. E gostava ainda mais de não ter vergonha de te ligar, de te convidar para isto ou para aquilo ou mesmo para coisa nenhuma. Gosto dos meus amigos e de como me fazem sentir amada. Gosto de me preocupar com eles a todo o instante. Gosto dos meus gatos e de como se entregam às minhas carícias. Fossem todas as pessoas assim...ou melhor, todas as pessoas não, só mesmo tu...E gosto muito de pensar que um dia destes, se me perguntares outra vez de que gosto, pode ser, pode ser mesmo que tenha a coragem de dizer: Gosto de ti!!!
Saturday, June 03, 2006
“If I do not want what you want, please try not to tell me that my want is wrong.
Or if I believe other than you, at least pause before you correct my view.
Or if my emotion is less than yours, or more, given the same circumstances, try not to ask me to feel more strongly or weakly.
Or yet if I act, or fail to act, in the manner of your design for action, let me be.
I do not, for the moment at least, ask you to understand me. That will come only when you are willing to give up changing me into a copy of you.
I may be your spouse, your parent, your offspring, your friend, or your colleague. If you will allow me any of my own wants, or emotions, or beliefs, or actions, then you open yourself, so that some day these ways of mine might not seem so wrong, and might finally appear to you as right -- for me. To put up with me is the first step to understanding me. Not that you embrace my ways as right for you, but that you are no longer irritated or disappointed with me for my seeming waywardness. And in understanding me you might come to prize my differences from you, and, far from seeking to change me, preserve and even nurture those differences. “
David Keirsey
Or if I believe other than you, at least pause before you correct my view.
Or if my emotion is less than yours, or more, given the same circumstances, try not to ask me to feel more strongly or weakly.
Or yet if I act, or fail to act, in the manner of your design for action, let me be.
I do not, for the moment at least, ask you to understand me. That will come only when you are willing to give up changing me into a copy of you.
I may be your spouse, your parent, your offspring, your friend, or your colleague. If you will allow me any of my own wants, or emotions, or beliefs, or actions, then you open yourself, so that some day these ways of mine might not seem so wrong, and might finally appear to you as right -- for me. To put up with me is the first step to understanding me. Not that you embrace my ways as right for you, but that you are no longer irritated or disappointed with me for my seeming waywardness. And in understanding me you might come to prize my differences from you, and, far from seeking to change me, preserve and even nurture those differences. “
David Keirsey
Sunday, May 28, 2006
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
«Às vezes, tu dizias: Os teus olhos são peixes verdes!
E eu acreditava.
Acreditava,porque ao teu lado
todas as coisas eram possíveis.
Mas isso era no tempo dos segredos.
Era no tempo em que o teu corpo era um aquário.
Era no tempo em que os meus olhos
eram os tais peixes verdes.
Hoje são apenas os meus olhos.
É pouco, mas é verdade:
uns olhos como todos os outros.
Já gastámos as palavras.
Quando agora digo: meu amor...,
já não se passa absolutamente nada.
E, no entanto, antes das palavras gastas,
tenho a certeza
de que todas as coisas estremeciam
só de murmurar o teu nome
no silêncio do meu coração.
Não temos já nada para dar.
Dentro de ti
não há nada que me peça água.
O passado é inútil como um trapo.
E já te disse: as palavras estão gastas.
Adeus »
Eugénio de Andrade
Sunday, May 21, 2006
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
One way....
"When the night has come
And the land is dark
And the moon is the only light we see
No, I won't be afraid
Oh, I won't be afraid
Just as long as you stand
Stand by me,
so* Darling darling stand by me
Oh, stand by me
Oh stand, stand by me, stand by me
If the sky that we look upon
Should tumble and fall
Or the mountain
Should crumble to the sea
I won't cry, I won't cry
No, I won't shed a tear
Just as long as you stand
Stand by me, and
Whenever you're in trouble
Won't you stand by me, oh stand by me...
I remember living in a total nightmare during 7 years of my life...7 long years that made me change so deeply that when I look back at the person that I was, I can't even understand how I was able to deal with all the cruel things that were inflicted to my sister and my close family. I was Miss Syrup, the kind of person that believed in fairytales and that love always prevails over evil...I lost track of how many people tried to harm us, discourage us, betray us...when I believed that my world was perfect and family and friends would see us through, I discovered that when your life is not perfect anymore, most people disappear, even people from your family...specially if your problem takes too long to solve...everyone gets used to it and stops caring or thinks we are making a big fuss over nothing...
During that time, I had some very low, low moments when I was so angry at God and believed Him to be so unfair I wouldn't even open my heart to Him. And all the while I believed, I believed that some miracle would happen and I wouldn't feel so alone, so lost, so weak every single day anymore. Was this blind faith? Maybe... but that was what got me going. That blind faith and learning how to channel my anger towards making people see I would do it without their help, no matter what. So, during that time, I had to learn how to evolve from being daddy's girl to a Big Sister that knew how to make every thing right. The pressure on me was enormous and I had so many nights when I cried and cried myself to sleep because I was so afraid I wouldn't be capable to keep my sister and my nephew safe...All that time, I had to forget about how afraid of life I was because I had to fight these huge dragons for them...And I ended up discovering that taking a stand and fighting gives you courage, no matter how afraid you are, how small you feel...
The song I started my blog with, even if very old, was "discovered" by me and my sister Sonia the first time we were in America, in 88, I was 15 and she was 13. And we knew then that we would stand by each other forever. I do believe that deep down in our hearts we have some knowledge of the ordeals that await us. And I know no matter what, my sister Sonia will stand by me as I stood by her because that's the way it's supposed to be. So, if I had to do it all over again or for an even longer period of time, I would, no questions about it.
All the while, to make things a bit more challenging, I had this amazing abbility to fall in love with the absolutely wrong people. I was attracted to them like a moth to the light. And even though they knew I couldn't take anymore sufering, anymore hurt in my life, they took all the love I gave them because I made them feel better. They felt they were better persons for I only saw the beauty inside. Not their insecurities, not their frustrations, their selfishness...I only saw the amazing people they could be if they were not afraid to follow their hearts.
It is quite amazing how I could attract the same kind of people into my heart over and over again. But there is a reason for it though...When we are not aware of our own value,of what we are worth, we end up attracting people that thrive on other people's admiration, other people's affection.
I remember being very self-conscious of my looks since an early age. How could I not be, when my family is full of beautiful women and I ended up comparing myself with my sisters who were so popular and always knew what to say...And because I was a bit clumsy, a bit odd, I never felt I was pretty enough, that guys would only look at me after they were tired of admiring my sisters or so....All this, added to pure shyness made me very insecure, very uneasy with guys. So, when these "wrong" persons approached me, I felt quite blessed by life , for I was so undeserving of their attention...yes, quite pathetic...but it was the way I was back then, when I was in my twenties...
The good thing of getting older is learning from our experiences, from our mistakes...I like when life makes me open up my eyes and realize I have been oh so wrong about something. And one of the things I learned was that looks aren't everything. Because there are a lot of beautiful people with such ugly insides I cannot even see beauty when I look at them. And I am more receptive to beautiful souls than to beautiful faces right now..
Wow, such a long blog. I can't even recall why I started writing it. It had something to do with realizing how many people are tainted by life, by relationships. Because most people I knew suffered at one point in their lives or are still suffering from loving the wrong persons for them. Why are we so blind when we fall in love? Why don't we listen to that little voice in our heart saying something is not quite well? Because we are so involved in having that person in our life that we don't care about the price we must pay. But it should not be like that. Love should be only about loving and being loved in return...that's the whole point in love. Not loving only in 1-way mode...
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Julie
Such an amazing, heart-felt blog. It made me think. It inspired me. None of us are alone in this world, even though we think or feel that we are. This blog should be turned into an article in a magazine. Great writing.
Posted by Julie on Sunday, January 22, 2006 at 3:20 PM
Claudia
Thank you. I am trying to be worthy of more compliments from you...
Posted by Claudia on Monday, April 03, 2006 at 6:54 PM
Linda
I love you.
I love you for all the different things you are: the sweet, the strong, the funny, the unsecure, the shy, the lovely, the princess, the mafiagirl, the ironic,the smart,all the special things that make you so special...I think your soul will bring you exactly where you have to go, and one day you will find your special person, and you'll love him and be loved in return just like you deserve. It's not a question of naivety, I really feel it in my heart, because being realistic doesn't mean being discouraged. You're more beautiful than what you think, inside and outside, just let yourself see this reality.
I love you, my friend, and I'm so happy you're in my life. THANK YOU!!!
Posted by Linda on Tuesday, January 24, 2006 at 2:38 PM
Claudia
You know I love you. More than I could ever say or try to express in words...
Posted by Claudia on Monday, April 03, 2006 at 6:55 PM
"When the night has come
And the land is dark
And the moon is the only light we see
No, I won't be afraid
Oh, I won't be afraid
Just as long as you stand
Stand by me,
so* Darling darling stand by me
Oh, stand by me
Oh stand, stand by me, stand by me
If the sky that we look upon
Should tumble and fall
Or the mountain
Should crumble to the sea
I won't cry, I won't cry
No, I won't shed a tear
Just as long as you stand
Stand by me, and
Whenever you're in trouble
Won't you stand by me, oh stand by me...
I remember living in a total nightmare during 7 years of my life...7 long years that made me change so deeply that when I look back at the person that I was, I can't even understand how I was able to deal with all the cruel things that were inflicted to my sister and my close family. I was Miss Syrup, the kind of person that believed in fairytales and that love always prevails over evil...I lost track of how many people tried to harm us, discourage us, betray us...when I believed that my world was perfect and family and friends would see us through, I discovered that when your life is not perfect anymore, most people disappear, even people from your family...specially if your problem takes too long to solve...everyone gets used to it and stops caring or thinks we are making a big fuss over nothing...
During that time, I had some very low, low moments when I was so angry at God and believed Him to be so unfair I wouldn't even open my heart to Him. And all the while I believed, I believed that some miracle would happen and I wouldn't feel so alone, so lost, so weak every single day anymore. Was this blind faith? Maybe... but that was what got me going. That blind faith and learning how to channel my anger towards making people see I would do it without their help, no matter what. So, during that time, I had to learn how to evolve from being daddy's girl to a Big Sister that knew how to make every thing right. The pressure on me was enormous and I had so many nights when I cried and cried myself to sleep because I was so afraid I wouldn't be capable to keep my sister and my nephew safe...All that time, I had to forget about how afraid of life I was because I had to fight these huge dragons for them...And I ended up discovering that taking a stand and fighting gives you courage, no matter how afraid you are, how small you feel...
The song I started my blog with, even if very old, was "discovered" by me and my sister Sonia the first time we were in America, in 88, I was 15 and she was 13. And we knew then that we would stand by each other forever. I do believe that deep down in our hearts we have some knowledge of the ordeals that await us. And I know no matter what, my sister Sonia will stand by me as I stood by her because that's the way it's supposed to be. So, if I had to do it all over again or for an even longer period of time, I would, no questions about it.
All the while, to make things a bit more challenging, I had this amazing abbility to fall in love with the absolutely wrong people. I was attracted to them like a moth to the light. And even though they knew I couldn't take anymore sufering, anymore hurt in my life, they took all the love I gave them because I made them feel better. They felt they were better persons for I only saw the beauty inside. Not their insecurities, not their frustrations, their selfishness...I only saw the amazing people they could be if they were not afraid to follow their hearts.
It is quite amazing how I could attract the same kind of people into my heart over and over again. But there is a reason for it though...When we are not aware of our own value,of what we are worth, we end up attracting people that thrive on other people's admiration, other people's affection.
I remember being very self-conscious of my looks since an early age. How could I not be, when my family is full of beautiful women and I ended up comparing myself with my sisters who were so popular and always knew what to say...And because I was a bit clumsy, a bit odd, I never felt I was pretty enough, that guys would only look at me after they were tired of admiring my sisters or so....All this, added to pure shyness made me very insecure, very uneasy with guys. So, when these "wrong" persons approached me, I felt quite blessed by life , for I was so undeserving of their attention...yes, quite pathetic...but it was the way I was back then, when I was in my twenties...
The good thing of getting older is learning from our experiences, from our mistakes...I like when life makes me open up my eyes and realize I have been oh so wrong about something. And one of the things I learned was that looks aren't everything. Because there are a lot of beautiful people with such ugly insides I cannot even see beauty when I look at them. And I am more receptive to beautiful souls than to beautiful faces right now..
Wow, such a long blog. I can't even recall why I started writing it. It had something to do with realizing how many people are tainted by life, by relationships. Because most people I knew suffered at one point in their lives or are still suffering from loving the wrong persons for them. Why are we so blind when we fall in love? Why don't we listen to that little voice in our heart saying something is not quite well? Because we are so involved in having that person in our life that we don't care about the price we must pay. But it should not be like that. Love should be only about loving and being loved in return...that's the whole point in love. Not loving only in 1-way mode...
4 Comments - 4 Kudos -
Julie
Such an amazing, heart-felt blog. It made me think. It inspired me. None of us are alone in this world, even though we think or feel that we are. This blog should be turned into an article in a magazine. Great writing.
Posted by Julie on Sunday, January 22, 2006 at 3:20 PM
Claudia
Thank you. I am trying to be worthy of more compliments from you...
Posted by Claudia on Monday, April 03, 2006 at 6:54 PM
Linda
I love you.
I love you for all the different things you are: the sweet, the strong, the funny, the unsecure, the shy, the lovely, the princess, the mafiagirl, the ironic,the smart,all the special things that make you so special...I think your soul will bring you exactly where you have to go, and one day you will find your special person, and you'll love him and be loved in return just like you deserve. It's not a question of naivety, I really feel it in my heart, because being realistic doesn't mean being discouraged. You're more beautiful than what you think, inside and outside, just let yourself see this reality.
I love you, my friend, and I'm so happy you're in my life. THANK YOU!!!
Posted by Linda on Tuesday, January 24, 2006 at 2:38 PM
Claudia
You know I love you. More than I could ever say or try to express in words...
Posted by Claudia on Monday, April 03, 2006 at 6:55 PM
Just came back from France and I am still adjusting to reality...It was heaven, being pampered and taken care of all day...and the meals were divine, I don't remember eating so much in my whole life...and the wine was superb...best white wine I ever tasted, I even bought a bottle to take home so I could share it with my family...
We were really lucky with the weather because we only got a grey, almost rainy day on the day we were returning home. My room was perfect, very princess-like, just my style. And it was fun being away from the office with people from the office. We were a very happy party of 8.Very noisy, maybe a bit too noisy for the Spa ambiance, that was supposed to be relaxed and calm. We were pretty hysterical all the time... One of the masseuses there had the best touch in the world, her hands were magical. I always ended up the massage session thanking her for the relief, for the pleasure, for her affection. It was something one could feel, her love for therapy , for making people feel better. I hope I get to be so very much like that, after a few years practice.
I guess I will be returning to myspace soon. I have been a bit distant because when I get home I am too tired to go there. I try to check my messages early morning when I get to the office, but not writing to anyone makes me having an empty inbox all the time, so I get a bit discouraged.
We are launching 2 new perfumes and even though everything is almost on schedule, there are far too many things I cannot control all the time and it pains me to feel impotent, to not know if I will have the materials on time, if proposals will be made on the deadline or not. I hate it but I am loving the challenge. It is soooooo much more difficult than what I used to do. And I want to know if I am up to it. I love this kind of situation. I just wish I had more energy to spare. More time to spend with my family and friends...Well...I will be trying to make the time in my life for those people. And the new perfume will be out in March, and the second one in May. And my life will be calmer from that moment on... I hope...
S
o, to those who complained about my lack of time and my lack of lines...it's not that I don't care. I do. every single day. I am just going through a bad phase and usually I withdraw when that happens...Give me a day or 2, or maybe a week...and I'll be my usually jolly self, and will write everyone.
Until then, just keep in mind that I DO LOVE YOU!!!!!!
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Julie
Yes, I'm with you!I've been the same, no time for myspace, no energy for anything else! Hope it gets better soon! I'm glad to hear that you had a good time in France, how couldn't you??!!!Lots of kisses and hugs! Send my love to Sonia , Nicole, and Julien as well! Love you!
Posted by Julie on Friday, January 20, 2006 at 12:25 AM]
♥ Ghetto Princess
Oh! eating great food, great wine & a massage.
La Dolce Vita!
So where is the perfume?
Posted by ♥ Ghetto Princess on Sunday, March 12, 2006 at 10:31 PM
We were really lucky with the weather because we only got a grey, almost rainy day on the day we were returning home. My room was perfect, very princess-like, just my style. And it was fun being away from the office with people from the office. We were a very happy party of 8.Very noisy, maybe a bit too noisy for the Spa ambiance, that was supposed to be relaxed and calm. We were pretty hysterical all the time... One of the masseuses there had the best touch in the world, her hands were magical. I always ended up the massage session thanking her for the relief, for the pleasure, for her affection. It was something one could feel, her love for therapy , for making people feel better. I hope I get to be so very much like that, after a few years practice.
I guess I will be returning to myspace soon. I have been a bit distant because when I get home I am too tired to go there. I try to check my messages early morning when I get to the office, but not writing to anyone makes me having an empty inbox all the time, so I get a bit discouraged.
We are launching 2 new perfumes and even though everything is almost on schedule, there are far too many things I cannot control all the time and it pains me to feel impotent, to not know if I will have the materials on time, if proposals will be made on the deadline or not. I hate it but I am loving the challenge. It is soooooo much more difficult than what I used to do. And I want to know if I am up to it. I love this kind of situation. I just wish I had more energy to spare. More time to spend with my family and friends...Well...I will be trying to make the time in my life for those people. And the new perfume will be out in March, and the second one in May. And my life will be calmer from that moment on... I hope...
S
o, to those who complained about my lack of time and my lack of lines...it's not that I don't care. I do. every single day. I am just going through a bad phase and usually I withdraw when that happens...Give me a day or 2, or maybe a week...and I'll be my usually jolly self, and will write everyone.
Until then, just keep in mind that I DO LOVE YOU!!!!!!
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Julie
Yes, I'm with you!I've been the same, no time for myspace, no energy for anything else! Hope it gets better soon! I'm glad to hear that you had a good time in France, how couldn't you??!!!Lots of kisses and hugs! Send my love to Sonia , Nicole, and Julien as well! Love you!
Posted by Julie on Friday, January 20, 2006 at 12:25 AM]
♥ Ghetto Princess
Oh! eating great food, great wine & a massage.
La Dolce Vita!
So where is the perfume?
Posted by ♥ Ghetto Princess on Sunday, March 12, 2006 at 10:31 PM
The best presents...
I got 2 great presents this year...a MP3 player, which was something I was wanting for the longest time. And until now I have no idea on how my friend guessed I wanted that...I guess he thought it was the perfect gift ever, since it's music related and he knows how passionate I am about that...
And the second present was this amazing snowflake Swarovski pendant that I will wear today for my birthday...It totally matches the silver/grey outfit my sister gave to me...and it shines a lot and makes me feel like a princess!!! This gift is particularly dear to my heart because it makes me remember the first day I saw snow...I woke up early in the morning, crawled out of bed and then turned to Linda with the amazing "It's snowing!" revelation! And this moment stayed in her mind, and she sent this lovely surprise to me...It made me cry...because I am so in love with surprises and wasn't expecting this...Grazie tante , my Linda!!!! And also many thanks to your dear mama!
I am going crazy with the million calls and sms I am getting today...not that I mind, when my friends don't remember my birthday I call them so they say happy Birthday to me. I just can't help it. I feel happy for being alive...for having them in my life, so my birthday is a celebration of all that...my director called me from Spain, before I whined at him for not remembering... Former boyfriends, relatives, friends, everyone getting in touch...I love it!!!
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Linda
My little snowflake, please don't cry! It was just a pleasure for me to send you a little gift...a way for remembering that special moment forever
Now you need to prepare yourself for the CARNIVAL!!!!!
Posted by Linda on Monday, January 02, 2006 at 2:20 PM]
Leigh Leigh
Happy Belated , love..Oh and since i wasnt able to be at Helena;s xmas..i was there last night and she gave me the gift you had for me...that was so thoughtful, thankyou so much,Claudia..I miss you and Love you lots..xoxox
Posted by Leigh Leigh on Tuesday, January 03, 2006 at 1:42 AM]
I got 2 great presents this year...a MP3 player, which was something I was wanting for the longest time. And until now I have no idea on how my friend guessed I wanted that...I guess he thought it was the perfect gift ever, since it's music related and he knows how passionate I am about that...
And the second present was this amazing snowflake Swarovski pendant that I will wear today for my birthday...It totally matches the silver/grey outfit my sister gave to me...and it shines a lot and makes me feel like a princess!!! This gift is particularly dear to my heart because it makes me remember the first day I saw snow...I woke up early in the morning, crawled out of bed and then turned to Linda with the amazing "It's snowing!" revelation! And this moment stayed in her mind, and she sent this lovely surprise to me...It made me cry...because I am so in love with surprises and wasn't expecting this...Grazie tante , my Linda!!!! And also many thanks to your dear mama!
I am going crazy with the million calls and sms I am getting today...not that I mind, when my friends don't remember my birthday I call them so they say happy Birthday to me. I just can't help it. I feel happy for being alive...for having them in my life, so my birthday is a celebration of all that...my director called me from Spain, before I whined at him for not remembering... Former boyfriends, relatives, friends, everyone getting in touch...I love it!!!
2 Comments
Linda
My little snowflake, please don't cry! It was just a pleasure for me to send you a little gift...a way for remembering that special moment forever
Now you need to prepare yourself for the CARNIVAL!!!!!
Posted by Linda on Monday, January 02, 2006 at 2:20 PM]
Leigh Leigh
Happy Belated , love..Oh and since i wasnt able to be at Helena;s xmas..i was there last night and she gave me the gift you had for me...that was so thoughtful, thankyou so much,Claudia..I miss you and Love you lots..xoxox
Posted by Leigh Leigh on Tuesday, January 03, 2006 at 1:42 AM]
Friday, December 30, 2005
33...
I'll be turning 33 tomorrow...Life does go by so fast... I still remember being a little kid when it took forever to get to Xmastime and to my birthday...now is more like "What, Xmas already?" And now I'm in my 30's and I feel I am just getting started...weird...because I had the same "fresh" feeling when I got to the 20's...I wonder if I will feel like this all through the decades, no?
All in all, I had a wonderful year. Travelled a lot : to Spain, to Sweden, to the States. And next year is sounding good too: to France, to Italy and to the States again. I met so many nice people on these trips, that will be in my heart forever . I had some great moments, so many unforgettable times!
Now, 2006 is so near and there are so many decisions to be made, so many things to go through. I just got promoted and have to accomodate myself to a totally different kind of responsabilities and pressure. I have to finish the College course my company is paying for, no matter how little motivation I have for it because I am always too tired to study or even staying awake in class...
I'll definitely get started in yoga and belly dancing classes. I would like to keep having Spanish classes and be able to learn Italian along the way. These are the kind of resolutions I like to make. Little, small, accomplishable things...I like to aim for the stars regarding my life, but not in my next year things to do list... To be honest, I never make New Year's resolutions. These are things I would be wanting to do, whether the year is beginning or not.
I am spending New Year's Eve at my friend Beatriz' parents. Sonia and Marco will be going with me. We will sing and have fun all night long. So, it's going to be a great birthday, spent with some of the closest to my heart people. It's been years since the last time I did something on my birthday so I know it will be great. I will take photos and post them here eventually...
And to everyone...a VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!
PS - FEEL FREE TO WISH ME A HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOMORROW!!!! I WILL LOVE IT!!!
3:18 PM - 1 Comments - 0 Kudos -
Ines
Desculpa nao te ter dado os parabens prima, eu sou mesmo uma desnaturada, horrorosa! PARABENS meu amor, que os teus 33 anos sejam espectaculares e que realizes todos os teus desejos. Continua a viajar muito e a ser a pessoa bonita que es. Eu estarei sempre aqui, à espera que numa das tuas viagens passes por aqui, ou quando eu passar por aí para te abraçar com muito carinho.
beijos e saudades com muito amor
Posted by Ines on Sunday, January 22, 2006 at 2:18 PM
33...
I'll be turning 33 tomorrow...Life does go by so fast... I still remember being a little kid when it took forever to get to Xmastime and to my birthday...now is more like "What, Xmas already?" And now I'm in my 30's and I feel I am just getting started...weird...because I had the same "fresh" feeling when I got to the 20's...I wonder if I will feel like this all through the decades, no?
All in all, I had a wonderful year. Travelled a lot : to Spain, to Sweden, to the States. And next year is sounding good too: to France, to Italy and to the States again. I met so many nice people on these trips, that will be in my heart forever . I had some great moments, so many unforgettable times!
Now, 2006 is so near and there are so many decisions to be made, so many things to go through. I just got promoted and have to accomodate myself to a totally different kind of responsabilities and pressure. I have to finish the College course my company is paying for, no matter how little motivation I have for it because I am always too tired to study or even staying awake in class...
I'll definitely get started in yoga and belly dancing classes. I would like to keep having Spanish classes and be able to learn Italian along the way. These are the kind of resolutions I like to make. Little, small, accomplishable things...I like to aim for the stars regarding my life, but not in my next year things to do list... To be honest, I never make New Year's resolutions. These are things I would be wanting to do, whether the year is beginning or not.
I am spending New Year's Eve at my friend Beatriz' parents. Sonia and Marco will be going with me. We will sing and have fun all night long. So, it's going to be a great birthday, spent with some of the closest to my heart people. It's been years since the last time I did something on my birthday so I know it will be great. I will take photos and post them here eventually...
And to everyone...a VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!
PS - FEEL FREE TO WISH ME A HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOMORROW!!!! I WILL LOVE IT!!!
3:18 PM - 1 Comments - 0 Kudos -
Ines
Desculpa nao te ter dado os parabens prima, eu sou mesmo uma desnaturada, horrorosa! PARABENS meu amor, que os teus 33 anos sejam espectaculares e que realizes todos os teus desejos. Continua a viajar muito e a ser a pessoa bonita que es. Eu estarei sempre aqui, à espera que numa das tuas viagens passes por aqui, ou quando eu passar por aí para te abraçar com muito carinho.
beijos e saudades com muito amor
Posted by Ines on Sunday, January 22, 2006 at 2:18 PM
So much to acknowledge in a month away I even feel dizzy... Here goes...
One of my best friends is now living with her boyfriend. I have 2 new colleagues so my little team of 6 is now a happy party of 8!!! My friend who got married last october is considering the idea ( or at least her husband and all her friends including me are) of having a baby!!! My sister is planning to move to a new, smaller house which means I will have to look for another place to live in. I still have to read around 200 work mails and answer people on pressing matters... In less than 2 weeks I'll be going to France, to a Spa in Bordeaux...I will find the way to go to Italy on Carnival...
Yesterday was Inventory day. Which meant I had to wake up extra early to be in my office at 7.45 so we could all go to the warehouses to count all items in stock. It took us a whole day, just counting once. Thank God the Logistics rules changed and we didn't have to count every item twice...And since I am not afraid of heights I got very "lucky" and was chosen to count most stuff 5 meters high...God, it was scary because the platform I was in wasn't covered so I had just a small iron bar to hold...anyway, it wasn't the first time I did it so I knew how to move upthere. I just am totally wasted today because I had to use all my muscles to keep my balance...Good exercise, I hope. I sure need it. After all I ate this Xmas anything to make calories go down is a Bonus!!!
Life is surprising in so many ways. Sometimes you need to be away so people will realize how much you mean to them.And sometimes you need to be away to realize how much more than you think some people mean to you too. It really works both ways. So, for so many reasons, it was wonderful being away...and quite nice to come back too. So much joy in getting back together again with my best friends. Their letting me know how much they missed me and my smile each passing day. Their countdown until they would be with me again...Their awe at my new look...right now they think it's strange when I don't wear my clip-on extra-long ponytail , which makes me feel quite ugly when I look natural ... just kidding...I chose to feel "beautiful" every single day, even though I may be on a bad hair day or feeling a bit sick...even though I have some "down" days I realized that I am a happy person, underneath it all. Even though I may feel anguished about certain aspects of my life or of my family and friend's lives, I always find a reason to smile. And that's a true blessing to me...Life can be too overwhelming, too sad, too stressful but I always have this light inside (even if quite dim, at times) that shines ahead and keeps me going...I thank God for that blessing and I thank my family and friends for keeping that light alive, for it's pure love!!!! Thank you, thank you, thank you all!!!!
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Linda
I quote every word you wrote about the love of your family and friends... i love your smile and your light so much my Claudia, and i love you also when you're sad or sick...and i can't wait for Carnival!!!
Life is beautiful, and we're lucky people, i think.
XOXOXO I LOVE YOU XOXOXO
p.s.: if you need a personal trainer for your muscles, here i am, you know
Posted by Linda on Friday, December 30, 2005 at 12:26 PM
One of my best friends is now living with her boyfriend. I have 2 new colleagues so my little team of 6 is now a happy party of 8!!! My friend who got married last october is considering the idea ( or at least her husband and all her friends including me are) of having a baby!!! My sister is planning to move to a new, smaller house which means I will have to look for another place to live in. I still have to read around 200 work mails and answer people on pressing matters... In less than 2 weeks I'll be going to France, to a Spa in Bordeaux...I will find the way to go to Italy on Carnival...
Yesterday was Inventory day. Which meant I had to wake up extra early to be in my office at 7.45 so we could all go to the warehouses to count all items in stock. It took us a whole day, just counting once. Thank God the Logistics rules changed and we didn't have to count every item twice...And since I am not afraid of heights I got very "lucky" and was chosen to count most stuff 5 meters high...God, it was scary because the platform I was in wasn't covered so I had just a small iron bar to hold...anyway, it wasn't the first time I did it so I knew how to move upthere. I just am totally wasted today because I had to use all my muscles to keep my balance...Good exercise, I hope. I sure need it. After all I ate this Xmas anything to make calories go down is a Bonus!!!
Life is surprising in so many ways. Sometimes you need to be away so people will realize how much you mean to them.And sometimes you need to be away to realize how much more than you think some people mean to you too. It really works both ways. So, for so many reasons, it was wonderful being away...and quite nice to come back too. So much joy in getting back together again with my best friends. Their letting me know how much they missed me and my smile each passing day. Their countdown until they would be with me again...Their awe at my new look...right now they think it's strange when I don't wear my clip-on extra-long ponytail , which makes me feel quite ugly when I look natural ... just kidding...I chose to feel "beautiful" every single day, even though I may be on a bad hair day or feeling a bit sick...even though I have some "down" days I realized that I am a happy person, underneath it all. Even though I may feel anguished about certain aspects of my life or of my family and friend's lives, I always find a reason to smile. And that's a true blessing to me...Life can be too overwhelming, too sad, too stressful but I always have this light inside (even if quite dim, at times) that shines ahead and keeps me going...I thank God for that blessing and I thank my family and friends for keeping that light alive, for it's pure love!!!! Thank you, thank you, thank you all!!!!
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Linda
I quote every word you wrote about the love of your family and friends... i love your smile and your light so much my Claudia, and i love you also when you're sad or sick...and i can't wait for Carnival!!!
Life is beautiful, and we're lucky people, i think.
XOXOXO I LOVE YOU XOXOXO
p.s.: if you need a personal trainer for your muscles, here i am, you know
Posted by Linda on Friday, December 30, 2005 at 12:26 PM
What I've been up to...
I just deleted a few people on my list. I'm not collecting people, so I don't need to keep people who don't write.I will always keep family, even if they don't write, but that's different. Family is family. I'm so far away from them all that I like using Myspace to keep an eye on them, so I know what they are doing with their lives.
Tanya's cat. She came here yesterday to leave her Baby while she doesn't find a house for her. An adorable kitten. Spent the night with me, taking the whole space in my bed. She just plays and plays endlessly and makes me melt and remember when my cats were small too.That was more than a decade ago. Anyway, there's no sweeter sound than a cat's purring and this little sweetie does a lot of that while I'm caressing and kissing her...she is soooo cute! I hope Tanya finds a nice home for her while she can't have her.
My office. So many things going on there while I'm away. 2 more people got hired. My little team is growing, we used to be 6, now we are 8. And in January we are all going to a Spa in France, at Bordeaux. It's a Spa that makes wine-based treatments, since it's located in a vineyard area. They have grape-seed products to exfoliate the skin, a red wine bath, and a lot of other treatments using Thermes of Caudalie products, which are quite expensive when sold at specialty stores.They also have several gourmet restaurants and nice hotels, with different decorations. And the Spa itself is a great place to relax and be pampered all day. We will also visit vineyards and do some sightseeing. So, after I get back from this vacation, I just have to wait a month and then hop on a plane to relax for a week...Life is great sometimes, isn't it?
Yesterday I went for a walk with my aunt Helena. She needs the exercise, I need to lose weight. She had told me we were going for a walk around Hudson High School and I thought it was really walking around the school. It turned out to be an indoor track, circling the school's gym. It was hot in there, but really, really nice. Anyway, I always love being with my aunt Helena, whether we are doing anything fun or not. We talk a lot and she makes me feel happy.While we were walking I told her a friend had sent me a message saying Gary would be playing in Nattick. When she told me that place was really close by, I told her we could still go since the event would be from 7 to 9 pm. We got there at 8. Just in time to know we had missed the show...I just don't get why they said the event would last until 9...Anyway, not all was lost, we got to to say hi to him and learn about the place his next show is, on Sunday. Hopefully we'll be going because I really like his new songs. And another thing, my aunt Helena got an autograph from the radio station DJ, Candy. It seems she had been singing too and was so happily giving away autographs to anyone who was there that my aunt couldn't refuse. But there's this weird moment when Candy asked her if she had liked the show and she answered she had just missed it. I know the girl felt really embarrassed, for she was just like "forcing" people to take her autograph...my aunt hadn't asked one for sure!!! Well, no harm done, and it was really funny...
And right now I'm ending this because I want my mother to teach me how to use the sewing machine. And since she's using the machine now, this is a good time.
See ya!
4 Comments
Julie
Sounds like fun!! I want to be the 9th person hired at your work!!! It sounds so cool. And be sure they hire me in time for that spa trip, OK????
Posted by Julie on Thursday, December 01, 2005 at 5:34 PM]
Linda
November/december in U.S.A. , january in France and february in Italy....you travel a lot!!!! What a lucky girl!!! :-D Say "HI" to Baby for me,ok?
Posted by Linda on Friday, December 02, 2005 at 4:52 PM]
Treasure
Wish I were there to go walking with you and Helena! sniff, sniff... I miss everyone.
Posted by Treasure on Friday, December 02, 2005 at 9:03 PM]
taNya**
she found a great home :) right across the street from me...haha.. can you tell i'm not ready to let my little kitten go?? :) thanks for watching her and for being so sweet to her!! isn't she a little doll???
I just deleted a few people on my list. I'm not collecting people, so I don't need to keep people who don't write.I will always keep family, even if they don't write, but that's different. Family is family. I'm so far away from them all that I like using Myspace to keep an eye on them, so I know what they are doing with their lives.
Tanya's cat. She came here yesterday to leave her Baby while she doesn't find a house for her. An adorable kitten. Spent the night with me, taking the whole space in my bed. She just plays and plays endlessly and makes me melt and remember when my cats were small too.That was more than a decade ago. Anyway, there's no sweeter sound than a cat's purring and this little sweetie does a lot of that while I'm caressing and kissing her...she is soooo cute! I hope Tanya finds a nice home for her while she can't have her.
My office. So many things going on there while I'm away. 2 more people got hired. My little team is growing, we used to be 6, now we are 8. And in January we are all going to a Spa in France, at Bordeaux. It's a Spa that makes wine-based treatments, since it's located in a vineyard area. They have grape-seed products to exfoliate the skin, a red wine bath, and a lot of other treatments using Thermes of Caudalie products, which are quite expensive when sold at specialty stores.They also have several gourmet restaurants and nice hotels, with different decorations. And the Spa itself is a great place to relax and be pampered all day. We will also visit vineyards and do some sightseeing. So, after I get back from this vacation, I just have to wait a month and then hop on a plane to relax for a week...Life is great sometimes, isn't it?
Yesterday I went for a walk with my aunt Helena. She needs the exercise, I need to lose weight. She had told me we were going for a walk around Hudson High School and I thought it was really walking around the school. It turned out to be an indoor track, circling the school's gym. It was hot in there, but really, really nice. Anyway, I always love being with my aunt Helena, whether we are doing anything fun or not. We talk a lot and she makes me feel happy.While we were walking I told her a friend had sent me a message saying Gary would be playing in Nattick. When she told me that place was really close by, I told her we could still go since the event would be from 7 to 9 pm. We got there at 8. Just in time to know we had missed the show...I just don't get why they said the event would last until 9...Anyway, not all was lost, we got to to say hi to him and learn about the place his next show is, on Sunday. Hopefully we'll be going because I really like his new songs. And another thing, my aunt Helena got an autograph from the radio station DJ, Candy. It seems she had been singing too and was so happily giving away autographs to anyone who was there that my aunt couldn't refuse. But there's this weird moment when Candy asked her if she had liked the show and she answered she had just missed it. I know the girl felt really embarrassed, for she was just like "forcing" people to take her autograph...my aunt hadn't asked one for sure!!! Well, no harm done, and it was really funny...
And right now I'm ending this because I want my mother to teach me how to use the sewing machine. And since she's using the machine now, this is a good time.
See ya!
4 Comments
Julie
Sounds like fun!! I want to be the 9th person hired at your work!!! It sounds so cool. And be sure they hire me in time for that spa trip, OK????
Posted by Julie on Thursday, December 01, 2005 at 5:34 PM]
Linda
November/december in U.S.A. , january in France and february in Italy....you travel a lot!!!! What a lucky girl!!! :-D Say "HI" to Baby for me,ok?
Posted by Linda on Friday, December 02, 2005 at 4:52 PM]
Treasure
Wish I were there to go walking with you and Helena! sniff, sniff... I miss everyone.
Posted by Treasure on Friday, December 02, 2005 at 9:03 PM]
taNya**
she found a great home :) right across the street from me...haha.. can you tell i'm not ready to let my little kitten go?? :) thanks for watching her and for being so sweet to her!! isn't she a little doll???
Hair issues...
I have a total incapacity for taking care of my own hair...so I try every product that promises I will be really successful doing it...the latest dope I tried was some gluey stuff to control friziness and fly-aways and all that you can always find in my hair...it's not that it was terribly expensive...what bugs me more is getting my hopes high and then getting this almost wet look result...I had to use my hair up all day because of that...and maybe people are thinking I'm walking around with extra-oily hair...I know, I know ... I could wash it...but I'm giving this product a real try...if it's really moisturizing, leaving it for a day will really make a difference, no? So, tomorrow, when I wake up, everyone will compliment me on my beautiful, beautiful hair... It wouldn't be so bad if I didn't live with my sister Sonia...she never has a bad hair day. She knows how to put it straight, curly, anything you might think of, she'll do it...and then there's me...To me, making a ponytail is almost an engineering feat...I'm so clumsy!
Anyway, I decided I'm stocking on those clip-on pieces of hair...so I can change my looks everyday and pretend I always have good hair days...In a damp day it looks like I put my tongue in the electrical socket and got my hair all frizzy...I hate winter..and rainy days...just because of that, can u imagine?
Anyway, I'm on the way to my aunt Helena to bother her and Ronnie a bit...so I'll stop this ridiculous blog!
2 Comments
Treasure
The best thing for frizzies that I've found are the products designed to make hair more shiney. Redken has one called "Glass". There are others similar to it, but that's the only one I know the name of. It only takes a little bit to smooth your hair. If you use too much, it won't make it look wet, but it will make it really oily looking. Granted, with naturally curly hair, no product will make hair look totally smooth, but this stuff helps - and it works great on my hair after I've flat ironed it!
Posted by Treasure on Wednesday, November 30, 2005 at 5:24 PM
Linda
Oh, hair....it's a problem for me too, now i'm home! I don't know, maybe the air in America was different, more dry....my hair were almost straight there...now they're normal (half straight, half curly) as usual...sigh :-(
I have a total incapacity for taking care of my own hair...so I try every product that promises I will be really successful doing it...the latest dope I tried was some gluey stuff to control friziness and fly-aways and all that you can always find in my hair...it's not that it was terribly expensive...what bugs me more is getting my hopes high and then getting this almost wet look result...I had to use my hair up all day because of that...and maybe people are thinking I'm walking around with extra-oily hair...I know, I know ... I could wash it...but I'm giving this product a real try...if it's really moisturizing, leaving it for a day will really make a difference, no? So, tomorrow, when I wake up, everyone will compliment me on my beautiful, beautiful hair... It wouldn't be so bad if I didn't live with my sister Sonia...she never has a bad hair day. She knows how to put it straight, curly, anything you might think of, she'll do it...and then there's me...To me, making a ponytail is almost an engineering feat...I'm so clumsy!
Anyway, I decided I'm stocking on those clip-on pieces of hair...so I can change my looks everyday and pretend I always have good hair days...In a damp day it looks like I put my tongue in the electrical socket and got my hair all frizzy...I hate winter..and rainy days...just because of that, can u imagine?
Anyway, I'm on the way to my aunt Helena to bother her and Ronnie a bit...so I'll stop this ridiculous blog!
2 Comments
Treasure
The best thing for frizzies that I've found are the products designed to make hair more shiney. Redken has one called "Glass". There are others similar to it, but that's the only one I know the name of. It only takes a little bit to smooth your hair. If you use too much, it won't make it look wet, but it will make it really oily looking. Granted, with naturally curly hair, no product will make hair look totally smooth, but this stuff helps - and it works great on my hair after I've flat ironed it!
Posted by Treasure on Wednesday, November 30, 2005 at 5:24 PM
Linda
Oh, hair....it's a problem for me too, now i'm home! I don't know, maybe the air in America was different, more dry....my hair were almost straight there...now they're normal (half straight, half curly) as usual...sigh :-(
My name...and more stuff...
Ok...so now I have a bit more time for this since Linda is gone and I'm too exhausted to go anywhere tonight...
I am tired of people not saying my name right...I know I'm being picky but hey, it's my name and I' m entitled to have some preferences on this case...Everyone in here says it wrong and I hate it sooooooo much! It's not that people say it wrong, of course they say it with the correct English pronounciation but it's so more "nasal" than the portuguese version and so more ugly...
I love Spearmint flavor. It's my favorite ever. Not that I am a chewing gum addict but I like to have some around. So I'm buying quite a few to take home, because in here you have so many and in Portugal it's quite hard to find.
I'll be doing some cooking with my mom tomorrow. I love to cook when I'm home so it will be wonderful to try some new recipes and learn to make my mother's dishes.She cooks really well, so I'd rather take the time to do it while I'm here.
Snow. I love it. And yes, it's too cold. And the streets get quite not-so-romantic when the snow is mixed up with mud in the sidewalks or along the roads. But all that white enchants me...and when it's snowing, it's just like a snowglobe...and I love snowglobes...I just hate the fact of everything being so slippery and my shoes being totally inapropriate. But I won't be buying freaking ugly boots just to get in and out of the house and stores...Specially when I can hang on to someone who is wearing appropriate shoes... Anyway, I went to Target today and was checking some boots that might not be so BIGFOOT style. Some were kind of nice ...but flat! How in the world will I ever use flat soles?! With my size? When everyone is so tall (at least outside my family)? Hell no...I like to be seen...or talked to, without people having to bend over...and sometimes, even when I'm with my high heels that happens, so flat shoes are not an option...not an option at all!
Tapioca. Jell-O. Fat free. I'm crazy about it. So crazy that when people invite me over I feel like asking if they have Tapioca there...How can something so nice be a pre-made dessert, you know, those puddings that come in powder in a box and cost less than a dollar? I'm taking some of those home too...
And for now that's all. I have some mails to answer to, and even though I feel quite tempted to answer with blogs, so I only have to write everything once, that is just not my style..
Take care you all!
5 Comments
Julie
You are too funny! I love all the different random things that you posted. I can't wait to see you again and hang out with you more. We might all be getting together for dinner one night this week, you in???? Probably Wednesday night....let me know!!!
Posted by Julie on Tuesday, November 29, 2005 at 2:03 AM
Treasure
Claudia...I was noticing that Helena pronounces your name more like the word "cloud". Cloud-ia. Is that correct? I even asked John if that's how we should pronounce it. haha
Posted by Treasure on Tuesday, November 29, 2005 at 4:07 PM
Niclas
Americans can´t spell names...
I´m in the same situation. My name is Niclas NOT Nicholas as all say in the states.
and I have most of my relatives there...
This morning I had two inches of frozen snow on my car and was late to my work...
I think you are a child again with so much snow around you.
I'd like to see a picture of you skiing...
regards
Niclas
Posted by Niclas on Tuesday, November 29, 2005 at 8:57 PM
Linda
Eheheh, i know how to pronounce your name ;)
Mmmh...about your problem with boots...maybe you could buy some cheap boots for the snow, 'cause playin in the snow is really too funny for missing it, don't you think so? i kizz you my girl xoxoxo
Posted by Linda on Friday, December 02, 2005 at 10:42 AM
Filipa
I'm sure I'm the only one in here that doesn't have a problem pronouncing your name!!! :P ;DIsto é que foi uma confusão de ideias, hein miga?!! :)Beijocas enormes!
Posted by Filipa on Friday, December 02, 2005 at 4:55 PM
Ok...so now I have a bit more time for this since Linda is gone and I'm too exhausted to go anywhere tonight...
I am tired of people not saying my name right...I know I'm being picky but hey, it's my name and I' m entitled to have some preferences on this case...Everyone in here says it wrong and I hate it sooooooo much! It's not that people say it wrong, of course they say it with the correct English pronounciation but it's so more "nasal" than the portuguese version and so more ugly...
I love Spearmint flavor. It's my favorite ever. Not that I am a chewing gum addict but I like to have some around. So I'm buying quite a few to take home, because in here you have so many and in Portugal it's quite hard to find.
I'll be doing some cooking with my mom tomorrow. I love to cook when I'm home so it will be wonderful to try some new recipes and learn to make my mother's dishes.She cooks really well, so I'd rather take the time to do it while I'm here.
Snow. I love it. And yes, it's too cold. And the streets get quite not-so-romantic when the snow is mixed up with mud in the sidewalks or along the roads. But all that white enchants me...and when it's snowing, it's just like a snowglobe...and I love snowglobes...I just hate the fact of everything being so slippery and my shoes being totally inapropriate. But I won't be buying freaking ugly boots just to get in and out of the house and stores...Specially when I can hang on to someone who is wearing appropriate shoes... Anyway, I went to Target today and was checking some boots that might not be so BIGFOOT style. Some were kind of nice ...but flat! How in the world will I ever use flat soles?! With my size? When everyone is so tall (at least outside my family)? Hell no...I like to be seen...or talked to, without people having to bend over...and sometimes, even when I'm with my high heels that happens, so flat shoes are not an option...not an option at all!
Tapioca. Jell-O. Fat free. I'm crazy about it. So crazy that when people invite me over I feel like asking if they have Tapioca there...How can something so nice be a pre-made dessert, you know, those puddings that come in powder in a box and cost less than a dollar? I'm taking some of those home too...
And for now that's all. I have some mails to answer to, and even though I feel quite tempted to answer with blogs, so I only have to write everything once, that is just not my style..
Take care you all!
5 Comments
Julie
You are too funny! I love all the different random things that you posted. I can't wait to see you again and hang out with you more. We might all be getting together for dinner one night this week, you in???? Probably Wednesday night....let me know!!!
Posted by Julie on Tuesday, November 29, 2005 at 2:03 AM
Treasure
Claudia...I was noticing that Helena pronounces your name more like the word "cloud". Cloud-ia. Is that correct? I even asked John if that's how we should pronounce it. haha
Posted by Treasure on Tuesday, November 29, 2005 at 4:07 PM
Niclas
Americans can´t spell names...
I´m in the same situation. My name is Niclas NOT Nicholas as all say in the states.
and I have most of my relatives there...
This morning I had two inches of frozen snow on my car and was late to my work...
I think you are a child again with so much snow around you.
I'd like to see a picture of you skiing...
regards
Niclas
Posted by Niclas on Tuesday, November 29, 2005 at 8:57 PM
Linda
Eheheh, i know how to pronounce your name ;)
Mmmh...about your problem with boots...maybe you could buy some cheap boots for the snow, 'cause playin in the snow is really too funny for missing it, don't you think so? i kizz you my girl xoxoxo
Posted by Linda on Friday, December 02, 2005 at 10:42 AM
Filipa
I'm sure I'm the only one in here that doesn't have a problem pronouncing your name!!! :P ;DIsto é que foi uma confusão de ideias, hein miga?!! :)Beijocas enormes!
Posted by Filipa on Friday, December 02, 2005 at 4:55 PM
What I want...
A friend of mine called me today to ask what I want for Xmas (and birthday, since it's so close)...well, I didn't know what to tell her...first, because I don't like telling other people what I want them to give...it eliminates the surprise factor which is what I like more about presents...and then, she got me wondering...she knows me since we were teenagers and she doesn't know what I like? If I was a guy I would understand the question...because it's too difficult to buy a guy a present...you end up going for the book or the cd or the pen or that kind of thing..not very personal stuff, very unlike my ideal gifts...
I ended up telling her something I like, to make it easier for her , because she was starting to stress...so, now I know one of the presents I'm getting underneath the Xmas tree... :-( no need for me to go and peep and rattle the package to try to guess what's in it...and I'm making real progress in that...last year I only opened most of my presents on the midnight of the 24th December like everyone is supposed to...but it's a torture...I hate the waiting even though I love it... :-( it's like that song " I hate you Then I love you, Then I love you, Then I hate you, Then I love you more" )
And who in the world starts buying Xmas presents in the middle of November? Well, I am so busy every day of the year, I always leave all that for the last minute and most of the time I don't have the time to buy a present for my friends before Xmas so it's better if I shut up right now...But this year, will be different..I'll do all my Xmas shopping in the States so it will be extra fun...
So, if you don't mind spoiling the surprise, let me know what you want for Xmas then...
A friend of mine called me today to ask what I want for Xmas (and birthday, since it's so close)...well, I didn't know what to tell her...first, because I don't like telling other people what I want them to give...it eliminates the surprise factor which is what I like more about presents...and then, she got me wondering...she knows me since we were teenagers and she doesn't know what I like? If I was a guy I would understand the question...because it's too difficult to buy a guy a present...you end up going for the book or the cd or the pen or that kind of thing..not very personal stuff, very unlike my ideal gifts...
I ended up telling her something I like, to make it easier for her , because she was starting to stress...so, now I know one of the presents I'm getting underneath the Xmas tree... :-( no need for me to go and peep and rattle the package to try to guess what's in it...and I'm making real progress in that...last year I only opened most of my presents on the midnight of the 24th December like everyone is supposed to...but it's a torture...I hate the waiting even though I love it... :-( it's like that song " I hate you Then I love you, Then I love you, Then I hate you, Then I love you more" )
And who in the world starts buying Xmas presents in the middle of November? Well, I am so busy every day of the year, I always leave all that for the last minute and most of the time I don't have the time to buy a present for my friends before Xmas so it's better if I shut up right now...But this year, will be different..I'll do all my Xmas shopping in the States so it will be extra fun...
So, if you don't mind spoiling the surprise, let me know what you want for Xmas then...
7 days...
and I keep focusing on next friday...it's my favorite "carrot" ever...
having some nice melissa tea. good for my stomach and to calm down at the end of a busy week. Got my passport today. brand new. not so good photo but who cares, i just need it to get out of the country. it's not like i am asking people if they want to see my passport photo or something. but the girl in the registration office wanted me to make a new photo because I'll have to "stand this one" for 10 years...no way, i had been waiting to get my turn and now i had to leave the place to go and take some more photographs because she didn't like my photo...who is she, my agent? anyway, she was nice and after 43 euros and few days waiting i have it. thanks to Filipa who was sweet enough to go there with me on both days and gave me a ride...she is also an awesome travelling companion, we went together to Sweden and had the time of our lives...we loved it so much we decided we have to do it again, in some other cities..Amsterdam, Copenhagen. But perhaps next city will be London. It's so cheap to go there (25 euros, if we book tickets long time in advance) it would be a shame if we missed the opportunity...I was there already and wouldn't mind going again and again and again. It's a trendy city, lots of style...lots of museums and places to visit...and I totally love that.
I have the most awesome teapot. It looks just like the Lamp of Alladin and it totally makes me melt because I'm crazy for this kind of things. It's by Bodum, it was a bit on the expensive side but it was my own gift for me last Xmas. If I knew how to put photos here I would show it to you. It's called Naoko teapot and if you saw it you would agree with me on how beautiful it is, it seems it popped out from the 1001 nights stories...
Well, it's late and I really need to sleep. Otherwise I'll be looking like hell tomorrow. And I was planning to take a few pictures ...
And if u had the patience to read until here, you must be really bored and without a thing to do...don't u have cable tv ? a dvd to rent? ah...stop reading!!!
Much love!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and I keep focusing on next friday...it's my favorite "carrot" ever...
having some nice melissa tea. good for my stomach and to calm down at the end of a busy week. Got my passport today. brand new. not so good photo but who cares, i just need it to get out of the country. it's not like i am asking people if they want to see my passport photo or something. but the girl in the registration office wanted me to make a new photo because I'll have to "stand this one" for 10 years...no way, i had been waiting to get my turn and now i had to leave the place to go and take some more photographs because she didn't like my photo...who is she, my agent? anyway, she was nice and after 43 euros and few days waiting i have it. thanks to Filipa who was sweet enough to go there with me on both days and gave me a ride...she is also an awesome travelling companion, we went together to Sweden and had the time of our lives...we loved it so much we decided we have to do it again, in some other cities..Amsterdam, Copenhagen. But perhaps next city will be London. It's so cheap to go there (25 euros, if we book tickets long time in advance) it would be a shame if we missed the opportunity...I was there already and wouldn't mind going again and again and again. It's a trendy city, lots of style...lots of museums and places to visit...and I totally love that.
I have the most awesome teapot. It looks just like the Lamp of Alladin and it totally makes me melt because I'm crazy for this kind of things. It's by Bodum, it was a bit on the expensive side but it was my own gift for me last Xmas. If I knew how to put photos here I would show it to you. It's called Naoko teapot and if you saw it you would agree with me on how beautiful it is, it seems it popped out from the 1001 nights stories...
Well, it's late and I really need to sleep. Otherwise I'll be looking like hell tomorrow. And I was planning to take a few pictures ...
And if u had the patience to read until here, you must be really bored and without a thing to do...don't u have cable tv ? a dvd to rent? ah...stop reading!!!
Much love!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
10 days to my holidays ...
Going through an awfully busy time in my office. The phone keeps ringing all day long and I try to keep a polite, sweet tone every time but as the day goes by it wears off and then when I just answer the phone normally (not even being rude), people will go and ask me if I'm ill or feeling down...And then I'm wondering who in this world is supposed to walk around with a Colgate smile all day, besides me, I mean...get real, people...I'm not a walking advertisement for toothpaste and when I smile (even though if I do smile a lot) it's because I feel like it. Get a life and leave me alone...specially because I'm never alone. Even when I try to sit quiet so no one will notice my little me...there is always someone. From Customer service asking for advice. From the accounting department asking for invoices and credits, which means I have to pick up the phone and talk to Spain ,because my Spanish is so much better than theirs or better yet, because they already know me...well, in case u don't know, if u start calling then they will know you...ok, ok, short fuse today...breathe in, breathe out, happy thoughts....blah, blah...I won't miss this while I'll be away.
Of course I will miss my friends. Filipa (my side-kick), Jose Paulo (my best friend in the whole world) and Fatima. The daily xxx-rated conversations with the people in my team: Isabel, Pedro and Albert, my director. Coffee breaks.Fun stuff that happens everyday. But this is where I draw the line. I couldn't stop thinking about work on my last vacation because I talked to someone from the office at least once a day...Not now...being on the other side of the ocean will keep me at a very safe distance...no phone calls, only e-mails, that I will check when I want, IF I want...hmmm, this feeling of absolute control is quite nice...I should go on vacation more often...
10 more days...going on 9, since it's nightime already...and Linda will be here in yahoo in a little while and our evening will be fun talking about our trip...the Mafia-Duo will be having a lot of fun together...oh, I just can't wait....
Well, well...gotta go now...waking up obscenely early tomorrow because I have to make a sales proposal to every Mango store in this country...only 50 of them , each one with special needs and all...so easy...
Take care you all.
Going through an awfully busy time in my office. The phone keeps ringing all day long and I try to keep a polite, sweet tone every time but as the day goes by it wears off and then when I just answer the phone normally (not even being rude), people will go and ask me if I'm ill or feeling down...And then I'm wondering who in this world is supposed to walk around with a Colgate smile all day, besides me, I mean...get real, people...I'm not a walking advertisement for toothpaste and when I smile (even though if I do smile a lot) it's because I feel like it. Get a life and leave me alone...specially because I'm never alone. Even when I try to sit quiet so no one will notice my little me...there is always someone. From Customer service asking for advice. From the accounting department asking for invoices and credits, which means I have to pick up the phone and talk to Spain ,because my Spanish is so much better than theirs or better yet, because they already know me...well, in case u don't know, if u start calling then they will know you...ok, ok, short fuse today...breathe in, breathe out, happy thoughts....blah, blah...I won't miss this while I'll be away.
Of course I will miss my friends. Filipa (my side-kick), Jose Paulo (my best friend in the whole world) and Fatima. The daily xxx-rated conversations with the people in my team: Isabel, Pedro and Albert, my director. Coffee breaks.Fun stuff that happens everyday. But this is where I draw the line. I couldn't stop thinking about work on my last vacation because I talked to someone from the office at least once a day...Not now...being on the other side of the ocean will keep me at a very safe distance...no phone calls, only e-mails, that I will check when I want, IF I want...hmmm, this feeling of absolute control is quite nice...I should go on vacation more often...
10 more days...going on 9, since it's nightime already...and Linda will be here in yahoo in a little while and our evening will be fun talking about our trip...the Mafia-Duo will be having a lot of fun together...oh, I just can't wait....
Well, well...gotta go now...waking up obscenely early tomorrow because I have to make a sales proposal to every Mango store in this country...only 50 of them , each one with special needs and all...so easy...
Take care you all.
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